I am afraid of facing my own future. Took me a while of thinking to come down to this ... sudden realisation. Yeah I'm a gung-ho, spontaneous person. I embrace what's around me and use that to enjoy and live my life. But then, I have never set my thoughts to what I will do in the future. Not even once. Others may be thinking of what university they would want to enter, what course. Some think even more long-term, companies they want to work for, houses/cars they want to own, how wealthy they want to be. I find nothing of that sort in this mind. And I can safely say this is the sole reason behind my lack of motivation for exams. This worries me, very much. People often tell me that I have a bright future ahead of me, but as it goes, my future prospects look pretty bleak indeed. I need something to make me work. Maybe its how I should change my way of thinking. To think long-term instead of short-term, of what would benefit me in the future instead of now. I am already turning 19, a year which marks the end of my teenage life. And its time to change some values and principles in life. Afterall, we don't stay young and naive forever. Its time to wisen up as I get older. But to think about it, its hard. My character as a person is already imprinted in me this way, and it'll be hard to change it. But hey, for the future and for the better? Maybe. Just ... maybe.

If you think about it, there's a whole lot more to life. Its just that we're so constrained by our hectic lives that we do not live our dream. I envy those in other countries who have passions and base their lives on it. Back home in Singapore, what one does to succeed is study. Nothing else. Is that truly how we want to achieve our dreams? Hard work is essential, but through that one and only channel?

Moving on to other things. This past month has pretty much been hell for me. After Revolut10n 2012 (which was a hell load of fun), I got a recurrence of my slipped disc, putting me out of floorball action for a month. Sucks, especially since my one and only passion is floorball. It really sucks watching the team train from the sidelines. I would rather be in there, training with them and suffering with them too. Ah well.

Shall touch a bit about being an OGL. It was interesting. For the first time ever, I got to lead. And it was certainly an experience not to forget :) My OG, Triton 4 was a hell of a class. Full of natural leaders and people who were damn 'on'. I liked that! Orientation was a hell lot of fun. From the start til the end! Especially going to Sentosa, and the finale night. Heh. That was a good break before starting to study!

Back to normal life, it was more about studying than anything. Stressful, and my CT talked to me about my attitude which pretty much knocked me up from my slumber and got me working harder. Its hard, but I guess with hard work the prize will come soon. :) School's been tiring, with all the studying, homework and whatever. Always having long days with minimal breaks! And then studying after school too. But I guess this is JC life. I chose it, so I can't complain (though I really want to). So yeah, A Levels year. All the waaaaaay.

In general, life hasn't been so eventful. Haven't been going out much, plus the only times I go out is to lepak with my bros. Lepak talk about life and drink teh. HAHAHA. Likka pakcik but oh well. Nice little sessions to relieve stress by talking it out with them!

Okay I've got nothing else to say. Til next time! Byeeeee.
Haziqaz.

Haven't been here in a while, have I? Miss this space. Maybe I should begin blogging again. From my phone, its really convenient. Ah well. Maybe not tonight though, its been a rough day. Cheerio!

Zouk was so fucking awesome.

The VS contingent in A Division 2011

The past few days have been a blast. Well, mainly because there hasn't been school until Thursday. I spent the whole of my Wednesday either studying or relaxing. Thursday was an extremely tiring day! Started off the morning with math, and then econs. Ms Halimah didn't come so we just did an essay outline for the whole lesson. PE was after that, and we played tennis but it got pretty boring. I can never really play tennis well. It looks easy but in reality its so hard to hit the ball with all the topspin and everything! I need more practice. After a while we got bored so we played frisbee in the tennis court heh. After our break was GP, with Mr Lye going through another form of essay. Chrystal period was spent on the movie therapy session, which I must say was quite good. Well, maybe just the movie because I didn't really listen to the rest of the stuff the lecturer said. Ended off the day with math lecture.

After school, went to pray and then did vectors. Was super tired so took a nap at the benches on the fourth floor, before training started. Training was super duper tiring I swear. Before it started I was already feeling pretty thirsty, due to the weather being so hot and humid. Luckily we trained until 7 only. Training itself was pretty fun. Did the usual drills, and then we played 3-on-3 games! Filip decided to split us up into the Muslim team and Chinese team. HAHAHA. I played with Syakirun and Amshar and our line scored a lot hehehe so fun! So training ended at 7, and afterwards me and amshar made our way down to the canteen to break our fast! MJC Iftar 2011 was quite good, honestly. So much good food, and great company. Although the people who turned up were just a percentage of the total number of muslim students in MJ, I still think it was great. Though it would have been nice if more people turned up! So yeaaaah. We ate alot. Okay not me, but the rest. Unfortuately for me and Amshar, we didn't have appetites because we had just finished with training.  So we ate really little. The whole thing ended at around 9, I think. After that, I lepaked with a few guys til 10pm near school then cabbed home. Great night :)

I have a friendly match with some corporate team tomorrow so I should sleep now. Last chance to play floorball before promos! Gotta make full use of it.
HaziqAz

I had a great night out with my cousins yesterday. We met at around 6.30 (because abang maman was late -.-) and trained to city hall, then went over to Marina Square to look for food. Buuuuut when it was time for buka, all the stores were packed with people. We originally planned to get some snackers at KFC to snack on while waiting for the fireworks, but seeing that it was crowded everywhere, we just bought drinks to break our fast and then went to the big steps facing esplanade to catch the fireworks. It was quite a while before the fireworks show started, but it was worth waiting. I haven't watched fireworks in years, and this was definitely an awesome night. We were all joking around about how taxpayer's money is getting blown up everytime there's fireworks but I think its worth it hahaha. Beautiful show yesterday, especially having fireworks shot from the top of buildings in the city area. Nice touch to the whole thing.


So afterwards, we were wondering what to eat and where. We knew that the city area would be packed with everyone who watched the fireworks and also those who actually went for the parade. Soooo we took the train and took an impromptu decision to stop at Stadium Station, and went to Kallang Leisure Park. We tossed a coin to decide between KFC and Pastamania, and the coin decided that it would be KFC. We stepped in and the first thing we smelled there was shit. Literally the smell of shit, as though somebody shit in KFC and left. So it was fated that we went to Pastamania! Haha. Ate our hearts out then because it was already 9pm and we were hungry to the point of starvation. Abang Maman's friend, Izzat came over after that. At the very end, Kak Fiqah bought us this desert. It was kind of like pizza crust, with melted chocolate and bananas on top. Delicious, you guys should seriously try it. And its only $3.90! After eating, we went to the area outside 7-11 while waiting for another of Abang Maman's friend. He finally came at around 11+? Super late haha but we all had a great time just sitting and talking to each other while waiting. After he came, we carried on talking until 12.15am when we finally decided to go off. Managed to catch bus 10 at the bustop near Dakota MRT, and then walked home from Tampines interchange. It was super duper empty at the interchange! And also on the streets. Totally empty, like only one or two occasional people. Haha. I reached home at around 1.30am. It was a great night though, enjoyed the fireworks and most importantly, the company. :)

Today is going to be my all-out study day. Have a great day everyone!
HaziqAz

Meet the Meridian Floorball Team of '12. We'll hopefully be the ones who get double champions again, and at the same time bringing the Championship Trophy back to MJC for the third year running, and keep that trophy. We'll train hard to see that happen. :)

Yesterday was a nice day. School was filled with red people. HAHA. I mean, people wearing red shirts because of the national day celebrations. It was .. okay. The usual songs, and there was a "Don't Forget The Lyrics" competition with all the national day songs! Frin won with her team 'Fresh Fruit Juice' hahaha I swear what a lame name but damn funny. Celebrations ended at around 10am. Afterwards a few of us went to the library and watched KL Gangster together! Haha I've watched before but again its a hilarious movie. With all the lingo like 'mehmeh' and 'sayur sayur sayur!', 'sengaaaaaaaaaaaat' and 'sial ah, pui!' which all of us have been using far too much nowadays. Heheh. After that movie ended, we watched 3 Idiots. Good movie! I've never watched it before but its about these three guys who got close together while in Uni. Reminds me of my brotherhood with Taufik and Farhan, but unfortunately that's non-existant anymore EH. Haha. Oh well, people come and go. Made my way back and reached home at around 3pm, if I'm not wrong. I took a quick shower then slept until 7! Woke up just before maghrib



(sorry for the grainy picture)

After maghrib, I got ready and went to meet insyirah, huda, amsyar (and his sister), naufal, farhan and shahirah at Paya Lebar. We waited for a while then went to Tanjong Katong Complex and met up with amshar and lili there. We walked around the Bazaar for a while checking out all the stuff on sale, but it got pretty frustrating because there were so many people! It was so packed, probably because of the fact that it was National Day eve. In the end we gave up and we decided to buy food and lepak somewhere. I bought "Black Paper Dengdeng" because that's apparently how they spell pepper hahahaha. Bought "Tako Yama" which is the way Insyirah's dad thinks Tako Yaki is supposed to be pronounced, and also Burger Ramly! We sat at some playground near Amsyar's house and ate after that. Had a superbly good meal because all the food is so fattening but delicious. HAHA. We parted ways around 11.30pm and I took the train home with Naufal. Reached home around 12. Had a great day, especially with such awesome company around. :)

Today I'm going to watch the fireworks with my cousins! Era, Kak Fiqah and Abg Azman. Probably going to have a food feast too, looking forward to that. And then we have MJC iftar on Thursday after training with most of the MJC muslim cohort so I'm really looking forward to that too! It's going to be a great week ahead Insya'Allah.

HaziqAz.

Been bloody ages since I've blogged. Always depended on twitter, but thing change. I guess I actually miss writing about my life in more than 140 words. Heh. Sooooo its been five long months since I've last blogged? Guess I barely have the time with all that's been happening in my life. Fast forward to now, its already the 8th day of Ramadhan, and so far my Ramadhan has been going well. I feel like a changed man, praying and actually keeping myself patient during this month. Hope its the beginning and that this will never end.

If I were to summarise my past five months into a few paragraphs, hell that wouldn't be enough. Besides, I forgot most that has happened anyway. But let me touch on major events that have happened in my life since I last posted. Definitely, one super special event was of course the A Division Floorball Championships 2011. Well, what can I say about that. I didn't regret getting a transfer to MJ and starting anew here. In a campaign where we remained unbeated, we defeated VJC in the finals by a score of 5-4. Close game and VJ played hard, credit should be given to them. They scored the first two goals of the game, with my defensive lapse being the cause of the second goal. But I'm proud of my team for not giving up because we scored five goals in quick succession in the second period, bringing the score to 5-2. And thankfully, I assisted one goal to make up for that mistake I made. But in the third period, VJ fought strongly and were rewarded with 2 goals, but we managed to hold on til the end, securing MJC's second successive championship. The girls too, were champions after defeating RIJC in finals with a score of 2-0. Double Champions, ftw. I'm so proud to have trained with these guys and girls and not given up throughout the season. We worked hard, played hard and fought hard and were certainly rewarded. Shall remember this team for years to come.


Floorball aside, school in general for me has been a blast. Its been fun having all the people who I usually hang out with. In class, I have my group of friends like Amshar, Clive, Clement, Insyirah, Jeanette and Clarice. These people always entertain me in class and during breaks with their jokes and comedic actions. I am never tempted to pon class because these people make me want to stay in class. Hahaha if you all are reading this, love you guys! Apart from that the company in school has been awesome. From the malay table people, to people I hang out during breaks, and also the standard table people, you all never fail to brighten up my lives and give me joy even through the most boring of days. Also during the hardest of times, you guys always cheer me up. Thank you. :')

I guess maybe starting from this blogpost, I'll start blogging more. Really miss writing everything out and documenting my daily life. Ain't gonna promise much, but I'll post regularly. Its somewhat therapeutic too, blogging. It sucks recovering from a really bad break up. But I'm Haziq. I'll march on. :)
HaziqAz

The people I've been training with, and going to play with in A Division 2011. Excited, nervous, happy. Hope our days and nights spent training will bring us glory. :)

So todaaaaaay was Friday. But I wouldn't say it was any other Friday, it was just something special about this day. Went to school as per normal, ended at 10.25am. After doing some math, I went over to Kallang and finally got my new stick, my Unihoc Player+ Bow 4.5. After a few weeks of waiting after my exel floorball stick broke, the feeling was ... awesome. And this stick is so beautiful, so sexy.


Just look at that bow - now that's sexy. Haha sorry I'm just excited about getting a new stick, especially after the heartbreak when my floorball stick broke a few weeks back. This new stick almost gives me enough motivation to play well and train even better. I'm so excited for next training so that I can use it properly. ^^

But anyway, after getting the stick at Valhall, I went back to school then went to the mosque for Friday prayers. Aft that, I actually wanted to follow Naufal and Farhan to Bugis. But my parents were leaving on a 'Cruise to Nowhere' later on, so I decided to go home first to check up on my siblings. Arrived home just in time to see my dad leave for the cruise. So exciting, my parents having second honeymoon! Haha. I hope they have fun and get to destress without the kids around. :) But anyway, after that I went out and met sofia at simei. Then we both took the train to Bedok, and then parted ways because I wanted to go to Huda's house for a get-together!

The gathering at Huda's house was nice and fun. We played kinect, mostly. I still can't believe that shikin is so pro at boxing, she beat me and Naufal in it! Hahaha. And mardhiah was awesome at bowling. O.O She had strikes in almost everything except for 2 spares and one frame with 9 pins knocked down. I lost to ayeshah in kinect soccer, because she slapped my face while playing. HAHAHA accidentally of course, but it was so damn funny. So anyway, most of the girls left around 9+. Tang left after that for clubbing, so it was left with me, saufi, naufal and huda. Played fifa11, then naufal had to go. Soooooo yeah, it was left with only us three. Ended off my awesome friday with a nice HTHT for a damn long time, until about 1.30am. I love having these friends around who I can really depend on and confide in, and expect just logical and good replies. So yeah, after that HTHT, me and saufi left, bought stuff at 7-11 and (thankfully there was) took the Nite Owl Service 2N. Reached home around 3, which is really late. Haha. But its been a really good day, and I'm thankful for that. :B

HaziqAz

I haven't updated this blog in a really long time. Haha but I haven't forgotten it though! Feels good to be blogging again. Haven't had the time to do much relaxing lately, just been school, floorball, family and girlfriend. Haha the life of a JC kid, eh?

School lately has been nothing much, just ending late almost every day. But the difference between last year and this year is that I'm more focused, more hardworking and I actually listen in lectures/tutorials. Heh. And I do all my tutorials! Sigh, what a big improvement from last year really. I'm proud of myself. :B But I know that I can do even better and manage my time better. Just still getting used to being hardworking, being a JC kid. Haha. Floorball meanwhile, has been satisfying. I'm finally playing the floorball I love, and not too much PT like last year. Sure, my fitness isn't as hiong but at least I'm regaining my touch in floorball. Unfortunately a few weeks back, my stick broke so now I have to get a new stick and get used to it. But all's fine, other than that. I really love playing floorball now. Trainings are on Monday, Wednesday and Thursday so I have plenty of time to study too. Ms Seah is not our coach anymore, unfortunately. Filip took over, but damn he's a good coach. I like him already. Hahaha. I really enjoy training under him, and training with the MJ team.

I guess I'm a much happier boy now that I'm in Meridian. My classmates are awesome, the floorball is awesome, and the company I have in school is really damn awesome. To the standard table and the malay table, a shoutout to all of you. Thanks for making my life in MJ so fun and enjoyable. :)


With all my heart,
HaziqAz.

(MY)SPACE ORIENTATION 2011

The past few days, I've been busy with school. Okay, when I say school I'm sure it sounds like studying and everything but no, I haven't been studying. Because I have been having so much fun, its almost a crime. Sooooooo, starting it off. The first day of school was exactly one week ago, 27th January 2011. That was our first administration day, where all the lame boring shit about administrative stuff were talked about. I was pretty bored, so me and some of the retainees finally escaped out of the hall and we went to Burger King at Whitesands to have our breakfast. Afterwards, we went back to school where we learnt MJC school cheers! Hahaha that was pretty okay. We were released around 4. The next day, was even just as boring. Had more talks in the morning, then friday prayers. Met sofia after that, then reached back to school around 3. Learned the mass dances, school anthem and cheers! I was feeling supaaaaaa high after that heh.

Weekend came, and then it was monday back again. It was the day I'd find out my class! But the day was awesome, I found out my class, I had awesome OGLs, and I had a really great time. We learnt cheers, went everywhere around the school playing games, had mass dance and all sorts of fun. I got high, and I got to know my classmates. Suits me fine. Haha. I don't exactly remember all that happened, but at the end of the day, I was wet from head to toe because of the wet games. And the best thing was that I forgot to bring extra underwear, so guess who had wet pants even after bathing! Haha. The day ended around 5pm. Oh, and the good news was that Insyirah got into my class! So at least there's someone I know and I can click with in class.

The second day was much more tiring. Amshar came back from Australia, so I had another friend in class! ;D  It was MMM (Mighty Meridian March) day, so we were supposed to go out to different places to do games and activities. We first went to Orchard, where I had to stick my hand into a container full of sawdust, and worms. O.O I was feeling very high that day, so I didn't mind. We did many more activities around different areas like Somerset and Clarke Quay. Unfortunately, it ended early because of bad weather. Came back to school and after mass dances and cheers, we were released. I met sofia after that and accompanied her to the doctor, and then went back home. :)

Third and final day of orientation! It was also CNY celebrations. Started off the day with lion dance and whatever at the assembly plaza, then it was wet games! Omg there were so many water bombs. I had loads of fun throwing them! And I got really wet because people kept throwing water bombs at me and splashing bucketloads of water at me. Grr. But it was fun because in the end, I was soaking wet and I felt soooo damn high. The finale was fun, with the whole J1 cohort on the field trying to defeat the "Nian". Hahahahaha. Anyway, went to bathe after that. Then it was breakfast with our senior class. They bought us chips and other stuff! Sooooo nice. Hehe had fun but my bag got dirty after Virgil spilled F&N grape all over my bag. Haha. After that we were released. I waited for the rest of the gang before finally going home. Went out again, met sofia. She got blonde highlights hehehehehe ^^ After that we went to the airport and celebrated Adibah's birthday. Went to seashell park and lepak-ed then.

So yes, ORIENTATION WAS AWESOMEEEEEEEEE. Okay, I guess the company was great. I couldn't ask for a better start to my MJC life. I'm looking forward to the two years in this school, looking forward to playing floorball for MJC, looking forward to studying and sitting for A's in less than two years time. Sounds crazy, but I'll do my best after that one year delay in VJ. Oh, and I lost my voice pretty bad because of orientation. Hahahaa. I croak like a frog now. o.o

Vicky!

Hi, meet my new school. :D

So yes, indeed, I'm transferring out of VJC to MJC. And I'll be retaining in J1. Buuuuuut, I'm extremely happy and excited! I mean, if you've been following me since last year the temptation to leave VJ was really great. But finally, I got the chance. I shall not flame my old school, but I'm glad I'm out. I mean, people will call me stupid for turning down VJ and joining MJ, but I truly believe this is where my happiness lies and I won't screw up my chances again.

Soooooo anyway, my past few days have not been too eventful. Basically its just going out or slacking at home. Oh, and I've been attending MJ floorball trainings and its really fun!! I'm having loads of fun in training hahaha. Its been a long time since I've been able to play without any pressure or worries or the thought of hardcore suicides after training. :D But anyway, about going out, yessssss I've been going out less often. But everytime I go out, its mostly with my baby. I wanted to spend all my available time with her since I'm starting school earlier than her. Ahhhh, I'll miss her so much while I'm in school. :(

So yeah, yesterday me, baby and my sister went to Simei first to open up my sister's new bank account, then we went to Marina Square to look at bags! I got myself a nice new bag for school. Oh, and a new wallet too. I love leather stuff, seriously. They're so long lasting and so nice to the touch. OH and we went to VJ to hand in my withdrawal letter! Okay so after getting my stuff at Marina Square, my sister went off to Bugis, so me and baby just roamed around before I sent her home at 7. Today, I met her again!! In the morning she came over to my house. Then we went to MJ to get my appeal stuff done and buy uniform. After that went to taper my uniform. Then, I had to go to VJ again to hand in the appeal stuff. Then back to MJ to hand in back the appeal stuff. What a tiring day. After that, I met baby at Tampines after she got her appeal done at TP. Sent her back home after that. That marks the end of my last day of holidays. Sucksssssssssssssssssssss :(

Vicky!

I haven't blogged in quite a while! Guess I didn't want to make time for it.

On the 2nd of January, the members chalet kicked off! And I must say, what a chalet it was. Full of laughs, fun, joy and everything. Sure, I had trouble in the planning because basically it was only me and farhan who planned for the whole thing, and we did have trouble in getting the finances for the chalet, but at the end, we found ourselves smiling because this chalet was mildly successful.

The first day, we did nothing much. Checked in at 3, then we just unpacked and sat around discussing stuff. We made a last minute decision there to have a BBQ the next night. Other than that, the day was free and easy. The view from our chalet was amazing! It was overlooking Changi Beach, we could see Yachts and the sea. It was really windy too, so we didn't need the aircon because at night it was very cold. That night, the rest slept at around 6 but I knocked out pretty early. Second day was quite rushed - I had to go out and buy the BBQ stuff. All of us woke up at around 11am. At around 12, my mum picked me and Saufi up and we went to Simei Eastpoint to get stuff for the BBQ. Thank god the finances were all in order and we didn't overspend. Met sofia too there, then we went back to the chalet. My mum went back to marinate the chicken for the barbecue. So back at the chalet, we unpacked the stuff, discussed some more stuff and ATE! Hahaha the food was nice, especially the curry chicken. At around 5, it was drizzling but I started off the barbecue with the help of Abang Talhah. I should say the barbecue was good. There was enough food for everyone! Except that I guess we needed more fishballs and hotdogs. Haha. Ended it off around 11, cleaned up and then that night, I don't remember what we did but I ended up knocking out at 3 on the queen sized bed all by myself. Day three passed by really fast! I had to go off in the morning to MJ to see the teacher. After that my parents sent me to Tampines where I met up with farhan, then we went to the chalet together. Reached around 4pm. So yeah, that day and night passed really fast. Everyone planned on NOT sleeping that night, but turns out most did. Haha. I just remember Saufi turning really biol around 3am, with him belting out tone-deaf versions of malay songs. He was laughing to himself too. Freaky boy.

Sigh, now that the chalet is over, everyone's back to their own lives. That chalet went according to my wishes. For me it was a worthy sacrifice for myself to plan this, even if it was on my own, so that every one of my brothers could re-establish ties. I guess that worked. It was an escape from reality and now that its over, everyone's back to his own busy lives. Sadly, a gathering like this only happens once a year. Other times of the year, its never complete. I miss my friends sighhhhh. But I guess that was a good chalet, it was really awesome while it lasted. :)

My sister got her results too. It wasn't what we all expected, but I'm still proud of her. I'll support you too, Hazirah, wherever you go.

Goodnight. The world seems nicer now, does it not? 2011 certainly has been awesome.
Vicky!

There has never been a year so taxing, so tiring, so stressful, so utterly disgusting than 2010. This was the year I really suffered and lost all hope in whatever I was doing. But then, towards the end of the year, I found myself in love. And then everything seems to go along fine. Though 2010 has been a bad year, I would say the end of 2010 would most certainly be one of the highlights of my life.



The most memorable was of course, January. After waiting for 2 months, I finally received my O Level results. I was expecting nothing less than 12 points! So was my mum. My dad expected 15. But I beat all odds and produced a miracle; getting 8 points. I was surprised myself that I had got such a score, but at the same time thankful to Allah, my teachers and the extra effort I put in after mid-years. I remember people coming up to me with surprised looks on their faces, with some saying "bloody hell you're a smart matrep". Haha I really hate them calling me a matrep. And yes, I could understand their surprise. After all, I have never gone below the 20 points mark in all my exams in vs. I jumped 13 points from my prelims to O Levels. I was really very surprised! But alhamdulillah, it was something now I could hold on to proudly. I was glad to make my parents and family really proud of me. But then came the realisation that the brothers that have been with me for 4 years wouldn't be in the same school as me for the next two years. We would be splitting up into different institutions.

Honestly, we really drifted apart for most of the year. I really missed them. We met so seldom, I felt like I had really lost them. There were times when I think I didn't meet them for at least two months. I really needed them, but everyone was busy with his own life. But thankfully, nearing the end of this year, I really got closer to my brothers again. Saufi, Afi, Taufik, Farhan, Luqman, Izzat, Wisnuh, Ziyad. We're hanging out together more often now. :) Of course, the first part of the year was especially hard too with Fawwaz migrating to Yemen. But once he came back for a short stay in singapore, we found ourselves hanging out a lot and that was what really got us back together. Thanks, fawwaz. We needed you to come back, I guess. There's not much I can say, and love is a strong word, but I love my brothers for being there for me all the time.



Then of course after that, came possibly the hardest decision that could ever be made in my life. MJC or VJC. I could enter MJC through merit, or VJC through sports appeal. After days and days of thinking and consulting my parents, who really wanted me to go to VJC in place of the other, I decided on Victoria. But that's where everything went really wrong for me. At the end of 2010, I really regret making that choice on going to VJC. Some people call me stupid for regretting such a choice of a prestigious institution, but they don't know what goes on behind the scenes. Honestly, I don't think its the school for me. The culture's just different from what I can adapt to. The people are great - my classmates, my other friends - they gave me enough strength to push through the year, but now I just don't want to go back. My studies were freefalling; absolutely terrifying. I did have A WHOLE LOAD of fun with my class, 10S42, but I'm afraid my journey with them has to end here. :( I wish them luck for A Levels in 2011. I wish I could have gone through the 2 years with them, have more fun with them. But alas, that is not what fate has in store.



I remember playing hockey in VJC, I was given the trust to play at right-back throughout the season. I haven't played hockey in two years and suddenly I was in the first-team, that was really tough. But I gave my best and so did the team. I must say that I really respected my seniors in the hockey team that year - Raj, Manoj, Vikash, Sabir, Louiis, and all the others. They really did well and brought the team far, and some of them only started hockey in J1! So in the end we got third after losing to eventual champions SAJC in the semi-finals. It was a tough but fun season, but I lost out a lot of lectures and tutorials for the matches.



Floorball in VJC was ... wow. Four goals, I scored. We cruised through the group stages. The came the semi-finals with MJC. Truthfully, we wanted to meet them in the finals but guess it wasn't fated. One of us had to go. I remember the match vividly. In that match, I was put as a forward, out of my preferred position as a defender. In that match, when we were down 2-3, I remembered scoring the equalising goal. A dragshot around the defender. I was stunned myself, I just stood rooted to the spot. But the feeling of immense happiness was just .. awesome. But our happiness was short-lived when MJC scored the winning goal and we couldn't score one back. But we lost to truly worthy opponents, and they went on to win YJC in the finals. The semi-finals with the most heartbreaking. I remember looking at afi, and both of us were shedding tears. How hard we tried to win that game. I felt a total hearbreak after realising that we had lost despite me scoring the equalising goal. But it was fated, so we just accepted it.And then came the 3rd/4th placing and we lost to RIJC. Honestly, I don't see it as any of the players' faults but my coach's. Enough said.



Club floorball. The first part of the year was awesome, I played for MS Victoria School in Division 3. I always looked forward to the matches because they were fun, especially with the people I played with. We played really well. I think we lost on one or two matches in the league and drew one time. Eventually after some admin details were settled, we would eventually be promoted to Division 2. Really good for a team of students all below the age of 18, if you ask me. We did really well. Then later on in the year came the part where I was selected by my school to go for combined schools trials. But at that time, I was in a confused state on whether to join combined schools or the Division 1 VS team. Eventually, I chose the VS team. Played in Div 1! Although I scored only 1 goal, I gained a whole lot of experience. The players in Division 1 are much better than any opponent I've ever played with before. And throughout the league, I was playing in centre or attack which was out of my preferred position, but I learned a whole lot. We ended up finishing in 6th place in the league, and that's not bad for a team which is only into its third year in Division 1. And I got to know a lot of guys there too, and I always had fun with them in training.



Then came a loss in my family. My maid who has been working with us for 9 years got diagnosed with cervical cancer and only four months after that, she lost her fight against the cancer, at home in indonesia. I will always remember her as a great cook, a good caregiver, she worked tirelessly for us! A great person to talk to and joke around with. Really, her services were irreplaceable. I remember in june when she was first diagnosed with cervical cancer and tests showed that her cancer was at stage 2B, we felt a little relieved because we knew it could be treated and cured. But unfortunately for us all, we didn't have the finances to help her. We had already forked out more than $5k with all the tests and hospitalisations and were running dry. Neither did her family have the money. :l If only we could help, if only. On October 28th, just four months and one day after we discovered that she had cancer, she passed away. My whole family was grief-stricken and extremely sad. All of us felt lost. It felt not long ago that she was in the kitchen, cooking for us, or cleaning the house, or watching tv and laughing along with us all. It was a great loss to our family, and she will be remembered forever.



On to happier things, this was the year I found tubby! I remember her first being a noisy and very small kitten crawling at my uncle's void deck. I picked her up, and despite objections by my mum, I was dead set of raising her as my pet. It was tough during those first few weeks. She would do nothing but drink milk, pee and sleep. I experienced the joy of looking at my little kitten growing. She used to be so small, but now that its been more than three months, she's really big and really naughty. Haha. I remember the joy I had when she started eating her first serving of solid food. Meaning I could slowly stop giving her milk and give her wet kitten food. I remember her mews when she still wanted milk. And then slowly she learned how to lick water from a bowl and after that, it was much easier taking care of her. I remember training her to pee and poo in the litter box. She took only a day! Sure, she peed outside the box once. But one day after feeding her milk, she crawled to the litter box and peed there. I was so happy that she found her own way! Haha. Feels like having my own little kid to take care of. But guess she's been the reason I've been happier nowadays. Its especially nice when she sleeps right beside me at night and curls up to me.


Guess that 2010 is ending on a high note.
Vicky!

I haven't blogged in quite a while, and during that time, a lot of things have happened in my life. First off was my trip to malaysia; KL and Cameron Highlands. It was a good retreat, but not that good. My little siblings are irritants, I swear. But they're my siblings, have to live with them. Haha. KL was great, good shopping. But I didn't get much done because of those two little siblings. Though I really loved the night scene and night life. I'm thinking of asking farhan and a few other people for a trip to KL and let loose! :D Spent three days at KL and then we drove up to Cameron Highlands. I love it there, its so cold even in the morning and its so relaxing. Did a little more shopping, though that place was more for relaxing and putting our minds at ease. But I remember going to starbucks there until midnight every day just to talk to my baby because I was really missing her. Overall, the trip was nothing spectacular, but it was worth the few days.

Then came my family chalet/bungalow retreat. My dad managed to get his company bungalow for five days from 20th to 24th. So we stayed the whole time, but it was pretty boring. There was nothing much to do. Lucky for me, I had farhan who stayed over for three nights, so it was much less boring. Though we spent most of our time crapping around. Mostly what I did there was relax, sleep, watch movies, play games, eat, barbecue, and talk crap. Wished more friends would come over though, but its fine with the company that came down. Plus Ziyad and Wisnuh slept for one night, and Fik did too but on a separate night. Good thing was that there was good food, and that matters especially to monsters like me and farhan.

And I've been short-listed for the combined schools team! Along with my friends clement, marcus, afi, eugene, bing yu and hamzah. The number of people have finally been cut from 70 down to 30+. I really hope I can make it through everything and play for APAC (Asia Pacific Floorball Championship) at Perth in January next year. It'll be a super good experience! Plus I've never ever been to Australia. Seriously. But I think the rest of the people there are really the crème of the crop, so it'll be hard to get through. But I hope with all our experience, we'll get through. It'd be nice to see my friends with me in Perth. Praying hard, playing hard. :)

2010 has been a really bad year, but I think things are finally looking up again. Everything's going swell. I like this peace in my life.
Vicky!