There has never been a year so taxing, so tiring, so stressful, so utterly disgusting than 2010. This was the year I really suffered and lost all hope in whatever I was doing. But then, towards the end of the year, I found myself in love. And then everything seems to go along fine. Though 2010 has been a bad year, I would say the end of 2010 would most certainly be one of the highlights of my life.



The most memorable was of course, January. After waiting for 2 months, I finally received my O Level results. I was expecting nothing less than 12 points! So was my mum. My dad expected 15. But I beat all odds and produced a miracle; getting 8 points. I was surprised myself that I had got such a score, but at the same time thankful to Allah, my teachers and the extra effort I put in after mid-years. I remember people coming up to me with surprised looks on their faces, with some saying "bloody hell you're a smart matrep". Haha I really hate them calling me a matrep. And yes, I could understand their surprise. After all, I have never gone below the 20 points mark in all my exams in vs. I jumped 13 points from my prelims to O Levels. I was really very surprised! But alhamdulillah, it was something now I could hold on to proudly. I was glad to make my parents and family really proud of me. But then came the realisation that the brothers that have been with me for 4 years wouldn't be in the same school as me for the next two years. We would be splitting up into different institutions.

Honestly, we really drifted apart for most of the year. I really missed them. We met so seldom, I felt like I had really lost them. There were times when I think I didn't meet them for at least two months. I really needed them, but everyone was busy with his own life. But thankfully, nearing the end of this year, I really got closer to my brothers again. Saufi, Afi, Taufik, Farhan, Luqman, Izzat, Wisnuh, Ziyad. We're hanging out together more often now. :) Of course, the first part of the year was especially hard too with Fawwaz migrating to Yemen. But once he came back for a short stay in singapore, we found ourselves hanging out a lot and that was what really got us back together. Thanks, fawwaz. We needed you to come back, I guess. There's not much I can say, and love is a strong word, but I love my brothers for being there for me all the time.



Then of course after that, came possibly the hardest decision that could ever be made in my life. MJC or VJC. I could enter MJC through merit, or VJC through sports appeal. After days and days of thinking and consulting my parents, who really wanted me to go to VJC in place of the other, I decided on Victoria. But that's where everything went really wrong for me. At the end of 2010, I really regret making that choice on going to VJC. Some people call me stupid for regretting such a choice of a prestigious institution, but they don't know what goes on behind the scenes. Honestly, I don't think its the school for me. The culture's just different from what I can adapt to. The people are great - my classmates, my other friends - they gave me enough strength to push through the year, but now I just don't want to go back. My studies were freefalling; absolutely terrifying. I did have A WHOLE LOAD of fun with my class, 10S42, but I'm afraid my journey with them has to end here. :( I wish them luck for A Levels in 2011. I wish I could have gone through the 2 years with them, have more fun with them. But alas, that is not what fate has in store.



I remember playing hockey in VJC, I was given the trust to play at right-back throughout the season. I haven't played hockey in two years and suddenly I was in the first-team, that was really tough. But I gave my best and so did the team. I must say that I really respected my seniors in the hockey team that year - Raj, Manoj, Vikash, Sabir, Louiis, and all the others. They really did well and brought the team far, and some of them only started hockey in J1! So in the end we got third after losing to eventual champions SAJC in the semi-finals. It was a tough but fun season, but I lost out a lot of lectures and tutorials for the matches.



Floorball in VJC was ... wow. Four goals, I scored. We cruised through the group stages. The came the semi-finals with MJC. Truthfully, we wanted to meet them in the finals but guess it wasn't fated. One of us had to go. I remember the match vividly. In that match, I was put as a forward, out of my preferred position as a defender. In that match, when we were down 2-3, I remembered scoring the equalising goal. A dragshot around the defender. I was stunned myself, I just stood rooted to the spot. But the feeling of immense happiness was just .. awesome. But our happiness was short-lived when MJC scored the winning goal and we couldn't score one back. But we lost to truly worthy opponents, and they went on to win YJC in the finals. The semi-finals with the most heartbreaking. I remember looking at afi, and both of us were shedding tears. How hard we tried to win that game. I felt a total hearbreak after realising that we had lost despite me scoring the equalising goal. But it was fated, so we just accepted it.And then came the 3rd/4th placing and we lost to RIJC. Honestly, I don't see it as any of the players' faults but my coach's. Enough said.



Club floorball. The first part of the year was awesome, I played for MS Victoria School in Division 3. I always looked forward to the matches because they were fun, especially with the people I played with. We played really well. I think we lost on one or two matches in the league and drew one time. Eventually after some admin details were settled, we would eventually be promoted to Division 2. Really good for a team of students all below the age of 18, if you ask me. We did really well. Then later on in the year came the part where I was selected by my school to go for combined schools trials. But at that time, I was in a confused state on whether to join combined schools or the Division 1 VS team. Eventually, I chose the VS team. Played in Div 1! Although I scored only 1 goal, I gained a whole lot of experience. The players in Division 1 are much better than any opponent I've ever played with before. And throughout the league, I was playing in centre or attack which was out of my preferred position, but I learned a whole lot. We ended up finishing in 6th place in the league, and that's not bad for a team which is only into its third year in Division 1. And I got to know a lot of guys there too, and I always had fun with them in training.



Then came a loss in my family. My maid who has been working with us for 9 years got diagnosed with cervical cancer and only four months after that, she lost her fight against the cancer, at home in indonesia. I will always remember her as a great cook, a good caregiver, she worked tirelessly for us! A great person to talk to and joke around with. Really, her services were irreplaceable. I remember in june when she was first diagnosed with cervical cancer and tests showed that her cancer was at stage 2B, we felt a little relieved because we knew it could be treated and cured. But unfortunately for us all, we didn't have the finances to help her. We had already forked out more than $5k with all the tests and hospitalisations and were running dry. Neither did her family have the money. :l If only we could help, if only. On October 28th, just four months and one day after we discovered that she had cancer, she passed away. My whole family was grief-stricken and extremely sad. All of us felt lost. It felt not long ago that she was in the kitchen, cooking for us, or cleaning the house, or watching tv and laughing along with us all. It was a great loss to our family, and she will be remembered forever.



On to happier things, this was the year I found tubby! I remember her first being a noisy and very small kitten crawling at my uncle's void deck. I picked her up, and despite objections by my mum, I was dead set of raising her as my pet. It was tough during those first few weeks. She would do nothing but drink milk, pee and sleep. I experienced the joy of looking at my little kitten growing. She used to be so small, but now that its been more than three months, she's really big and really naughty. Haha. I remember the joy I had when she started eating her first serving of solid food. Meaning I could slowly stop giving her milk and give her wet kitten food. I remember her mews when she still wanted milk. And then slowly she learned how to lick water from a bowl and after that, it was much easier taking care of her. I remember training her to pee and poo in the litter box. She took only a day! Sure, she peed outside the box once. But one day after feeding her milk, she crawled to the litter box and peed there. I was so happy that she found her own way! Haha. Feels like having my own little kid to take care of. But guess she's been the reason I've been happier nowadays. Its especially nice when she sleeps right beside me at night and curls up to me.


Guess that 2010 is ending on a high note.
Vicky!

I haven't blogged in quite a while, and during that time, a lot of things have happened in my life. First off was my trip to malaysia; KL and Cameron Highlands. It was a good retreat, but not that good. My little siblings are irritants, I swear. But they're my siblings, have to live with them. Haha. KL was great, good shopping. But I didn't get much done because of those two little siblings. Though I really loved the night scene and night life. I'm thinking of asking farhan and a few other people for a trip to KL and let loose! :D Spent three days at KL and then we drove up to Cameron Highlands. I love it there, its so cold even in the morning and its so relaxing. Did a little more shopping, though that place was more for relaxing and putting our minds at ease. But I remember going to starbucks there until midnight every day just to talk to my baby because I was really missing her. Overall, the trip was nothing spectacular, but it was worth the few days.

Then came my family chalet/bungalow retreat. My dad managed to get his company bungalow for five days from 20th to 24th. So we stayed the whole time, but it was pretty boring. There was nothing much to do. Lucky for me, I had farhan who stayed over for three nights, so it was much less boring. Though we spent most of our time crapping around. Mostly what I did there was relax, sleep, watch movies, play games, eat, barbecue, and talk crap. Wished more friends would come over though, but its fine with the company that came down. Plus Ziyad and Wisnuh slept for one night, and Fik did too but on a separate night. Good thing was that there was good food, and that matters especially to monsters like me and farhan.

And I've been short-listed for the combined schools team! Along with my friends clement, marcus, afi, eugene, bing yu and hamzah. The number of people have finally been cut from 70 down to 30+. I really hope I can make it through everything and play for APAC (Asia Pacific Floorball Championship) at Perth in January next year. It'll be a super good experience! Plus I've never ever been to Australia. Seriously. But I think the rest of the people there are really the crème of the crop, so it'll be hard to get through. But I hope with all our experience, we'll get through. It'd be nice to see my friends with me in Perth. Praying hard, playing hard. :)

2010 has been a really bad year, but I think things are finally looking up again. Everything's going swell. I like this peace in my life.
Vicky!

Its been quite a while since I've blogged, but besides there's not much to happening in my life anyway. Okay, except for some stuff I'll still blog. Here goes!

A week or so back was Kak Syidah's and Abang Maman's birthday. Soooo on thursday some of us met up to get the cake and where else to we go to get delicious cakes? Royals! I swear to god their chocolate cakes are just orgasmic. Though I THINK they used to be nicer a few years back. So anyway, we ordered the cake, then went for dinner. Caught up and yeaaah, it was nice to see these people after so long. But we didn't stay so long since we'd be meeting on the saturday to celebrate the birthdays. Saturday came, and kak syidah didn't turn up because she apparently had a migraine. So the cake was all for Abang Maman and it was awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. :D After eating two slices of cake, we ordered food from Botak's Favourites at Simpang. The cajun chicken was pretty nice. But my cousins laughed at me for getting burger buns. What's wrong I love buns. HAHAHAA. :B Afterwards some had to leave, so that left a few of us and we went to Tampines Starbucks and lepaked. And it was really something new because kak qila and abang maman have never gone out with us on cousin outings before. Guess its better now that we're older hahah. Went back home around 11.

Floorball! Yeah that part again. Haha I think I've fallen in love with floorball all over again. I lost interest ever since vj suspended me from training and I haven't been training for like what, 6 months? NO. 8 months now that its december. I didn't realise but that is sooooo long. I miss floorball. BUT ANYWAY I decided to go for combined schools trials and I should say that its really fun! I got through the first two rounds of selection and I'm hoping to go all the way. If I get chosen, I get to go to APAC in Australia next year! :) Thats a really good thing. Buuuuut I hope my 8 months hiatus from floorball won't hinder me much because I really lost my touch and those at the trials are really the best among JCs and secondary schools. :/ Pray for me! I really hope I can get in.

Aaaaaaaaaand then this part is about another big drama in my life! Last night somebody tried to break into my house through the sliding windows. And me and my sister were awake during that time. We discovered because the would-be thief dropped a bamboo pole outside our house hahaha. When I went to check it out, the guy bolted. I gave chase but he had a pretty good head start before I could go chase. I don't want to tell the full story, but at the end of it I knew where he went and where his escape route was but my dad didn't want to call the police. -.- So after friday prayers I had to go make the police report myself since I saw the person and I knew where he went and I knew there were bound to be cameras that caught him. So I really hope the police solve this one. Apparently there has been a series of break ins around my area. The police sent a letter to my house but my mum didn't show us. My parents ah, seriously. -.- Danger to society mayn. Hahahaha.

Okay anyway, tomorrow is cikgu shyamira's wedding and I'm excited! :D Hope it goes well.
Vicky!

The scene in Saufi's kitchen at 2 in the morning. We were all hungry but too lazy to move our asses out to the coffee shop downstairs. So armed with 9 packets of maggi, rose syrup and evaporated milk, we made ourselves a nice supper of Maggi Curry with Bandung. NICE. The background is that I asked everyone to gather for a sleepover and fawwaz would come so that we could spend the last hours of his time in singapore with him. We kind of succeeded, but fawwaz couldn't sleep over so yeah. But apart from that, the rest of us had fun. With all the maggi and bandung, we watched a horror movie. The Exorcist. It was a super old movie BUT DAMN FREAKY I SWEAR. And not to mention it was crude and disgusting. But it wasn't that scary, just a few shocking parts. After that movie, we were all very tired so we just fell asleep. Had only two hours of sleep before I had to go home, bathe, and then follow my grandfather to CGH for his appointment. My mum, uncle and aunt came along too. I was so sleepy because of the lack of sleep that I actually just slept while waiting for my grandfather's turn to come. Haha. After that we had breakfast at Qi Ji. Sent atuk home and then I went home.

Slept from about 1pm to 8pm. I was really very tired. I only had 6 hours of sleep in the past 2 days! The previous night I stayed up til 6am to watch El Clasico and woke up again at 10.30am to accompany Sofia for her interview at Toa Payoh, and then we went out to eat and just walk around all the way til about 7pm? Haha. I was really tired because of the lack of sleep but I just carried on. :/ Besides I went to a lot of places unexplored by me in Marina. I realised that I really don't know that place well! Hahah.

Oh and Fawwaz left for Yemen today! :( He was here for such a short while and then he'll be back what, next year? I think we won't see him for more than 6 months again. And that's really sad because once again, one brother is missing. But always in our hearts. Hahah. Left home around 8.45, waited 30 minutes for saufi at Tanah Merah, and then met the others at the airport. The stewardesses from British Airways were SO DAMN HOT. Especially the blondes. Woaaaaaaah. Okay, enough. We planned to have dinner with Fawwaz before he left, but right after we ordered our food, Fawwaz had to leave. So we watched him go, and then continued with our meal. Heh. Wah but seriously, I wish he could stay longer. :/ Sigh. Caught the second last bus home with Saufi and Afi. :)

I'm so tired. I want to sleep. But I want to play Sims 3 now. :B
Vicky!